14 vjet m\u00eb par\u00eb\u2026 Koha e gjumit po afrohej. Ishim aq t\u00eb af\u00ebrt. Isha e rraskapitur, isha e p\u00ebrlyer dhe kisha vap\u00eb. Fal\u00eb treshes dhe v\u00ebllait t\u00eb tyre 4-vje\u00e7ar, k\u00ebtu gjithnj\u00eb ishte zhurmsh\u00ebm dhe z\u00ebn\u00eb.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Kisha shum\u00eb pak koh\u00eb p\u00ebr veten time dhe me siguri kaluan kat\u00ebr dit\u00eb q\u00eb kisha b\u00ebr\u00eb dush. \u00c7do moment t\u00eb jet\u00ebs time kujdesesha p\u00ebr nevojat e tyre dhe megjith\u00ebse isha plot\u00ebsisht e rraskapitur, nuk do t\u00eb doja q\u00eb t\u00eb ishte m\u00eb ndryshe. Duart e mia ishin plot, por k\u00ebshtu ishte edhe zemra ime.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Sapo mbaruam ritualin e dark\u00ebs dhe banj\u00ebs. Mblodha djemt\u00eb e mi p\u00ebr t\u00eb luajtur pak minuta para shtratit. Disa k\u00ebng\u00eb u luajt\u00ebn n\u00eb radio, dhe t\u00eb gjith\u00eb vall\u00ebzuan, k\u00ebnduan dhe luanin me lodrat e tyre. I rregullova shpejt lodrat sepse doja q\u00eb djemt\u00eb e mi t\u00eb shkonin n\u00eb shtrat dhe t\u00eb b\u00ebnin dush sa m\u00eb shpejt t\u00eb ishte e mundur. Pastaj, n\u00eb nj\u00eb moment, d\u00ebgjova nj\u00eb nga djemt\u00eb t\u00eb thoshte: \u201cOh jo\u201d.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
U ktheva vet\u00ebm n\u00eb koh\u00ebn p\u00ebr t\u00eb par\u00eb stilolapsin i cili shp\u00ebr.theu n\u00eb dor\u00ebn e nj\u00ebrit nga djemt\u00eb e mi dhe ngjyra blu filloi t\u00eb p\u00ebrhapet n\u00eb t\u00eb gjith\u00eb qilimin. Ai b\u00ebrtiti i lumtur kur pa ngjyr\u00ebn t\u00eb sp\u00ebrkatur n\u00eb pizhamet e pastra. U trondita kur pash\u00eb njollat blu q\u00eb ndot\u00ebn qilimin ton\u00eb t\u00eb ri. Shpejt e thirra burrin tim, q\u00eb t\u00eb vinte e t\u00eb m\u00eb ndihmonte. N\u00eb sekond\u00eb u acarova, e mora djalin tim dhe e \u00e7ova n\u00eb tualet p\u00ebr ta lar\u00eb, nd\u00ebrsa burri filloi t\u00eb f\u00ebrkonte njollat blu n\u00eb qilim.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Isha aq e shqet\u00ebsuar saq\u00eb filluan t\u00eb rridhnin lot\u00ebt. Isha e rraskapitur dhe zem\u00ebruar. Me t\u00eb v\u00ebrtet\u00eb, shum\u00eb shum\u00eb e zem\u00ebruar. Nuk isha e zem\u00ebruar me djalin tim (i cili ishte djal\u00eb si Shtrumf), por isha e zem\u00ebruar me veten time q\u00eb e lash\u00eb stilolapsin n\u00eb af\u00ebrsi t\u00eb f\u00ebmij\u00ebve. Jetonim n\u00eb k\u00ebt\u00eb sht\u00ebpi vet\u00ebm gjasht\u00eb muaj, dhe qilimi ishte p\u00ebrk\u00ebrkund.
At\u00eb nat\u00eb e f\u00ebrkuam at\u00eb njoll\u00eb nj\u00eb or\u00eb dhe nuk mund ta pastronim. T\u00eb nes\u00ebrmen thirr\u00ebm pastrues t\u00eb qilimave q\u00eb e pastronin qilimin me mjete t\u00eb posa\u00e7me, por njolla ende mbeti. Ndihesha sikur po m\u00eb shikonte, aq e ndritshme dhe blu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Sa her\u00eb q\u00eb shikoja at\u00eb njoll\u00eb, ndihesha e d\u00ebshp\u00ebruar. Ishte e sh\u00ebmtuar dhe plot\u00ebsisht e kund\u00ebrt me qilimin ton\u00eb. Pavar\u00ebsisht \u00e7far\u00ebdo q\u00eb b\u00ebm\u00eb, ajo njoll\u00eb mbeti. Kjo njoll\u00eb m\u00eb d\u00ebshp\u00ebroi dhe m\u00eb turp\u00ebroi. Ajo m\u00eb zem\u00ebroi dhe m\u00eb b\u00ebri t\u00eb ndihesha si n\u00ebn\u00eb e keqe sepse lash\u00eb stilolapsin n\u00eb af\u00ebrsi t\u00eb f\u00ebmij\u00ebve. Ajo njoll\u00eb blu ishte nj\u00eb negative e madhe n\u00eb jet\u00ebn time. Dhe e urreja. Muajin vijues, biri im i \u00ebmb\u00ebl, i cili e b\u00ebri t\u00ebr\u00eb qilimin me boj\u00eb blu, u diagnostikua me kancer. Ai vdiq dy vjet m\u00eb von\u00eb.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Djali im vdiq, kurse njolla blu? Ajo ishte akoma atje, duke ma kujtuar vazhdimisht djalin tim. Ishte nj\u00eb kujtes\u00eb e vazhdueshme e di\u00e7kaje kaq t\u00eb par\u00ebnd\u00ebsishme \u2013 di\u00e7ka q\u00eb ishte e par\u00ebnd\u00ebsishme n\u00eb vet\u00eb jet\u00ebn.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Ajo njolla blu ishte nj\u00eb kujtes\u00eb se jeta \u00ebsht\u00eb e \u00e7rregullt, por ia vlen t\u00eb jetosh. Nj\u00eb kujtes\u00eb e vazhdueshme q\u00eb nuk duhet t\u00eb shqet\u00ebsohemi p\u00ebr gj\u00ebra t\u00eb vogla. Nj\u00eb kujtes\u00eb e vazhdueshme se nuk jan\u00eb gj\u00ebrat me r\u00ebnd\u00ebsi, por njer\u00ebzit. Nj\u00eb kujtes\u00eb e vazhdueshme se aksidentet ndodhin. Nj\u00eb kujtes\u00eb e vazhdueshme se duhet t\u00eb shp\u00ebtojm\u00eb nga gj\u00ebrat jo t\u00eb r\u00ebnd\u00ebsishme dhe se duhet t\u00eb p\u00ebrqendrohemi n\u00eb ato q\u00eb kan\u00eb r\u00ebnd\u00ebsi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Me kalimin e viteve, ajo njoll\u00eb nuk u zhduk aspak. Ajo dalloheshte mir\u00eb n\u00eb qilimin ton\u00eb t\u00eb err\u00ebt. E mbuluam mir\u00eb me mobilie, por sa her\u00eb q\u00eb l\u00ebvizja mobiliet p\u00ebr pastrim n\u00ebn t\u00eb, ajo njoll\u00eb do t\u00eb ishte aty dhe m\u00eb dukej sikur po m\u00eb shikon. Sa her\u00eb q\u00eb e shihja, m\u00eb merrte frym\u00ebn dhe m\u00eb kujtonte humbjen.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Kjo njoll\u00eb q\u00eb m\u00eb b\u00ebri t\u00eb qaj tani m\u00eb b\u00ebn t\u00eb fal\u00ebnderoj Zotin p\u00ebr t\u00eb gjitha ato kujtime. Ajo m\u00eb kujton q\u00eb jeta \u00ebsht\u00eb e ndyr\u00eb. Do t\u00eb ket\u00eb njolla n\u00eb dyshemen\u00eb e kuzhin\u00ebs. Uji i peshkut t\u00eb art\u00eb do t\u00eb derdhet n\u00eb t\u00eb gjith\u00eb makin\u00ebn. Dritaret do t\u2019i thyej\u00eb topi i bejsbollit. Shportat p\u00ebr larje jan\u00eb plot, si dhe pjatat q\u00eb p\u00ebrmbyten n\u00eb lavaman.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Gjurm\u00ebt e gisht\u00ebrinjve n\u00eb der\u00ebn e xhamit dhe ngjyrat n\u00eb t\u00eb gjith\u00eb tryez\u00ebn. Dhe do t\u00eb ket\u00eb njolla blu n\u00eb qilimin e ri. Njollat japin m\u00ebsim mir\u00ebnjohjeje. Ata n\u00eb fakt jan\u00eb bekime t\u00eb maskuara.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Dhe e dini \u00e7far\u00eb? Uroj q\u00eb t\u00eb kisha nj\u00eb milion njolla blu n\u00eb qilimin tim, n\u00ebse kjo do t\u00eb thoshte se do t\u00eb kisha edhe nj\u00eb dit\u00eb m\u00eb shum\u00eb me djalin tim.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
14 vjet m\u00eb par\u00eb\u2026 Koha e gjumit po afrohej. Ishim aq t\u00eb af\u00ebrt. Isha e rraskapitur, isha e p\u00ebrlyer dhe kisha vap\u00eb. Fal\u00eb treshes dhe v\u00ebllait t\u00eb tyre 4-vje\u00e7ar, k\u00ebtu gjithnj\u00eb ishte zhurmsh\u00ebm dhe z\u00ebn\u00eb. Kisha shum\u00eb pak koh\u00eb p\u00ebr veten time dhe me siguri kaluan kat\u00ebr dit\u00eb q\u00eb kisha b\u00ebr\u00eb dush. \u00c7do moment t\u00eb […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"jnews-multi-image_gallery":[],"jnews_single_post":[],"jnews_primary_category":[],"footnotes":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-30166","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-news"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/kohanews.al\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/30166","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/kohanews.al\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/kohanews.al\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/kohanews.al\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/kohanews.al\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=30166"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/kohanews.al\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/30166\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":30168,"href":"https:\/\/kohanews.al\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/30166\/revisions\/30168"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/kohanews.al\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=30166"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/kohanews.al\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=30166"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/kohanews.al\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=30166"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}